If there is one thing I can never shoulder, it's 'losing'.

It's not about losing a game.

It's not about losing precious data on my mobile / computer.

It's not about losing something I own.

Well, maybe.

I can never shoulder losing a friend.

I shouldered it once, wounded, bled, and recovered.

I don't think I can shoulder it another time.

I can already feel the wound starting to tear apart again, and I feel the familiarity of the lost overwhelming me again.

I don't want to go through it again.

If there's anything I can do, I will do it...

I miss you...