do you feel like this sometimes?

sitting on a chair by the roadside, watching the day go by.

you did nothing.

you achieved nothing.

i felt like this for the past 2 weeks. i may be busy with work. with cg. but i felt that at the end of the day, it seems as if i've accomplished nothing.

especially Easter just went by, and what have i done? i called up some friends, but none could make it. my group had friends, but in the end one fell sick, one had last minute things on, and the other, i don't know.

i don't want to sit down there and watch things go by.

the other day in Boss's car with gillian and val and morgan, we were talking about the days where boss did this and that. val did this and that. morgan did this and that.

i want to have something under my name too. so that when people mentioned me, i know i have achieved something.

changed someone's life?
did an event?
or... ?

i don't know, too many to list, or think about. i just don't want to SIT AND DO NOTHING!

God, I ask that you take away this procrastination, and laziness. Give me a willing and a contrite heart.