haven't been regularly updating this space.

well recently alot of things have happened and taken place. most of them spills over from last year, i am still recuperating from what has happened.

i wished the saying ain't true, but unfortunately, it is.

"You only treasure what you have lost."

no matter how much i say i treasured it alot before i lost it. i still yearn and miss it alot now. i wished i didn't have to lose it.

and that's where the second sad saying comes true:

"Good things doesn't last."

well, i believe it doesn't apply to EVERY SINGLE thing that happened, but most of them i guess.

just got a piece of shocking news today, and i really wish it didn't have to be this way. it is ALWAYS like that, just when i have put a lot of myself into it, it has to end.

why why why??

if only it didn't have to. i am tired of rebuilding again and again what is lost and ended. but well, i guess that's life, and i believe God has greater plan for me.

no matter how painful it is, or how unbearable it is, i know i am not going through it alone and God is with me. :)

time to set my goals for this year! read in a book that we all should set 101 goals, and that gives us a purpose in life. imagine waking up day after day with no goals to achieve or look forward to?

so well, here are some that i can think of off hand...

1. get a class 2b license by June 2010

2. get a tattoo by June 2010

3. saved up $1.5k by Dec 2010 (excludes building fund!)

4. train up 2 group ICs in ministry

5. be punctual for every meeting

6. finish one book every month

and more to come...